Unrequited Love

i get so
sick of this.
im so done.
all these things keep me on the runn.
but im stopping now.
i dont quite know how.
but i will.
cause i cant go on.
im not that strong.
all i want is you.
but all you want is her.
and ill still be here
its what i do.
i wait, and wait, and wait for you.
i hate it.
but i say its fine by me.
i cry a little when you dont see.
i feel like we are more than friends
but when you mention her my fantasy ends.
i hate her.
she isnt me.
she makes you smile
and makes you frown.
i keep you up when she make you down.
i hate her more.
shes still not me.
but shes exactly who i want to be.