memories float past like dust.
2weeks ago soo recent.
no frolicking.
no skipping.
my field is empty
i no longer hear the happy sounds of
laughter, joy, and good times.
my field is empty.
i remember a younger time.
now dissolving into the abyss.
i always knew it would come to this.
my field is empty.
in the center of the grass i lay.
imobilized. unmoving. but breathing.
ill take it all in. like the first breath. like my last.
my field is no longer empty.
theres me.
center, with the help of gravity.
Poetry
Friday, January 21, 2011
Unrequited Love
i get so
sick of this.
im so done.
all these things keep me on the runn.
but im stopping now.
i dont quite know how.
but i will.
cause i cant go on.
im not that strong.
all i want is you.
but all you want is her.
and ill still be here
its what i do.
i wait, and wait, and wait for you.
i hate it.
but i say its fine by me.
i cry a little when you dont see.
i feel like we are more than friends
but when you mention her my fantasy ends.
i hate her.
she isnt me.
she makes you smile
and makes you frown.
i keep you up when she make you down.
i hate her more.
shes still not me.
but shes exactly who i want to be.
sick of this.
im so done.
all these things keep me on the runn.
but im stopping now.
i dont quite know how.
but i will.
cause i cant go on.
im not that strong.
all i want is you.
but all you want is her.
and ill still be here
its what i do.
i wait, and wait, and wait for you.
i hate it.
but i say its fine by me.
i cry a little when you dont see.
i feel like we are more than friends
but when you mention her my fantasy ends.
i hate her.
she isnt me.
she makes you smile
and makes you frown.
i keep you up when she make you down.
i hate her more.
shes still not me.
but shes exactly who i want to be.
A cry for HOPE
to cope with anything
we mask our pain
const antly , secre tly
in the rain
we walk
alone as we take the steps
towar ds excep ting who we are
i cant chang e
no
i wont chang e
dont try to make me
let me be me
dont yell at me pleas e
im fragi le
i did not do anyth ing
why do you yell at me
still your words enter my brain
haunt ing
teasi ng
i want to be in the rain
where you cant see my cry
my tears blend in
like tiny drops from a cloud
ill try to forge t again
pushi ng, pulli ng
im the rope in
tug- o-war
i want to be speci al to you
somet hing more than i am
but i cant
i am nothi ng
just a speck of dust
in the world today
behin d these brown eyes
is somet ing new
somet hing even
I havnt disco vered yet
its my awake ning
its begin ning
will you join me
i push my tongu e to the roof
of my mouth
what am i tryin g to say
its soo close
its comin g
its here
Hope
ive said it
ive relea sed whats withi n
Hope
ive said it again
this magic word
this thing
can i chang e it
can i chang e mysel f
my happi ness is soo close i can taste it
judge me
for despi te what i want i am
here to be judge d
hate me
its happe ned befor e
like me
be MY frien d
know ME
LOVE me.
ill try so hard to love you
how do i lable this
my jumbl ed words ..
ive said it befor e
shoul d i say it again ??
const
in the rain
we walk
alone
towar
i cant chang
no
i wont chang
dont try to make me
let me be me
dont yell at me pleas
im fragi
i did not do anyth
why do you yell at me
still
haunt
teasi
i want to be in the rain
where
my tears
like tiny drops
ill try to forge
pushi
im the rope in
tug-
i want to be speci
somet
but i cant
i am nothi
just a speck
in the world
behin
is somet
somet
I havnt
its my awake
its begin
will you join me
i push my tongu
of my mouth
what am i tryin
its soo close
its comin
its here
Hope
ive said it
ive relea
Hope
ive said it again
this magic
this thing
can i chang
can i chang
my happi
judge
for despi
here to be judge
hate me
its happe
like me
be MY frien
know ME
LOVE me.
ill try so hard to love you
how do i lable
my jumbl
ive said it befor
shoul
ill ask for it one more time
HOPE
HOPE
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